Can we have a little chat? Perhaps over some lemonade and cookies?
I've considered writing these thoughts up for over a year--
and today is the day where I take a brain dump.
Let me start at the beginning.
Picture it: Sicily, 1942.
(how many times can she fit that in a post? A lot, apparently.)
Back in the day, I was a mom with little, little kids. We moved a lot.
(regard that I had only a folding table and chairs. So sadly pathetic.)
I knew no one, I had no car, no friends, lived in teensy little apartments with little to no furniture, and most importantly,
I was BOOOOOORED.
And so, I turned to the interwebs for some adult interaction.
And it helped. And I felt better. Less lonely. And then. . .
little by little, I found myself sneaking off to check my email/forums/blogs. Have you been there, done that?
Has it ever gotten so out of hand that you found yourself kind of making your life revolve around your online time? You're checking your email, for the hundredth time? Checking how many likes you got on facebook? If anyone responded? If anyone cares?
2 or more years ago, I read an internet addiction quiz. While some of them are waaaay out there for me, several of them described me quite well. ("gets annoyed when disturbed during online time", check. "Neglects household chores", check.)
Ever had your kids stop bothering to ask you questions while you're glued to the screen?
I need to tell you, that with this realization that my internet time was too high on the priorities list, plus when I seriously studied these great words of advice,
I knew I had to make massive changes.
Apparently, I am an all or nothing kind of personality. I don't keep things in check the way I should. Moderation isn't my strong suit. And so forth.
I started cutting things out. Never opened a twitter account, stoped facebooking all together, cut down on my own blogging by several times a week, moved my computer to the dungeon where I rarely visit, and I don't have a smart phone.
Do you know what it felt like at first?
It felt like everyone I ever knew was having a massive party. And I just uninvited myself to it all.
Took me a while to get over that feeling, in fact.
If you have a strong internet presence, and still manage to keep everything in their proper place, tell me, how do you do it? What is your secret?
Anyhow, now-- NOW--
Now, I feel like a totally different person. A different mommy. I feel like I live in the now. ("You'll never afford it! Live in the now!") I still struggle with my project time versus my "mommy" time, an then have to refocus and regroup,
but it's one of the best decisions I ever made for me.
Maybe one of the reasons why I finally decided to chat about this with you, is 'cause one of the final things I hadn't minimized was my blogging time. Not my personal blog, but the ones I follow.
Up until a few days ago, I would not be surprised if my Reader subscriptions were around the 400+ mark. I josh not. It was more a chore to clean it out than it was to enjoy all the blogs I thought I "should" follow, else I would miss the announcement of the end of the world or something.
And so, I cleared that puppy out. Kept the ones I adore and really do read, and the rest were gonzo.
It honestly felt like it was my last step to keep things in check.
Thanks for listening, friends.